| idealism |
[Feb. 26th, 2012|03:23 am] |
Why has idealism gotten such a bad rep?
Isn't it fantastic to hold on to something in your head that's exactly what you want, perfect and unharmed? The world we live in is corrupted enough, so why still let that seep through your consciousness?
I'll be realistic when realism calls, but for the rest of the time, just let me be who I am. An idealist who will always be naive, because she wants to believe in the good. An idealist that will look to the future because she always has hope that someday, she'll be closer to that perfect picture in her head.
Hope & Faith, aren't these the things that keeps us breathing?
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| 2011 according to 2010 |
[Jan. 1st, 2012|07:28 pm] |
Time for another new year's resolutions post, as I'm sitting here at my dining table eating peanut butter sandwiches and drinking AJ.
First, let's gauge 2011 according to the resolutions I've made.
- continuous learning: I've learned quite a few new recipes this year, read some good books, up my makeup skillz but failed to learn anything that need actual skill and practice (i.e.. an instrument) Grade: C
- health: too many drunk nights, over eating on somedays and starving to death on others. And never working out. Grade: FAIL, and FAILED MISERABLY. :(
- money-wise: been earning some actual income, realizing the value of money and started a real savings account. Although spending habits have not improved. Grade: B
- Looks: I've had pretty good skin most of this year so I'm very very thankful. But my hair still looks like willy wonka. Grade: B+
- Travel: Taiwan and USA!!! What more can I say, only department I can proudly say I've accomplished. Grade: mutherfuckin' owned it.
All in all, 2011 was more than a mediocre year but not at all that awesome (even though some drunk nights were pretty damn rad). Not too bad I must say. Will write 2012 when I think of it. Goodbye 2011, it was nice. Don't really know what to expect from 2012 yet. |
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[Nov. 14th, 2011|12:26 am] |
Aren't there just too many things to do in life?
- have breakfast in bed
- fall asleep under the stars on the beach
- camp out in a tepee
- build a fort with blankets and christmas lights
- jump off a cliff, into the ocean
- stay in a gorgeous, airy vacation house
- live in new york
- live in cali
- live in seattle
- live in paris
- live in monaco
- live in tokyo
- live in all those great cities
- swim in crystal clear waters
- caneo into caves
- trek forests
- lie out on the beach with a stiff drink
- actually make out with a cute boy sober
- have a very handsome boyfriend
- look like a victoria secret model
- have a six pack
- drive down ocean ave
- have a caravan vacation
- dance to great music all night long (not in a club)
- wear fabulous clothes and make-up all day, everyday
- eat like a cow and not grow fat
- own a bakery
- travel the world with just a journal, a camera and a suitcase.
- speak a new language
- run across a wide, open field
- go skinny dipping in a lagoon
- own a humongous library
- have a pet kitty cat
- die peacefully in your sleep |
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| 22 |
[Oct. 23rd, 2011|03:24 am] |
Is this what the twenties is about?
20. Realising there's a huge world out there, itching to explore it.
21. Not really thinking, just want to take in as much as anyone or anything could offer.
So at 22, it's not so much about taking chances anymore. It's about knowing what you want and what you don't. Keeping what you need and trashing what you don't. Taking chances and making them yours.
22. A little more growing up to do. |
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| freedomland |
[May. 10th, 2011|09:20 am] |
not that i was ever opposed to the idea, but i'm beginning to think that living alone in a foreign land might be a very very very very good idea.
not that i don't love the people back at home, but i love myself and my freedom more. |
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[May. 6th, 2011|02:08 am] |
bye everybody!
see you in 2 months. meanwhile, let's hope i have tons of crazy fun, meet many interesting people and find myself a hot ang moh boyfriend. :D |
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[Apr. 12th, 2011|01:49 am] |
we're all ghosts.
so no hard feelings eh? |
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[Mar. 24th, 2011|11:35 pm] |
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they say its important for every child to have a father, but it seems like i'll be better off without one. |
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| mother |
[Mar. 21st, 2011|01:25 am] |
As usual, I have a deadline to rush but this entry is important.
Last week, a very close friend of my lost his dad to cancer. It was a tough fight, and definitely not easy to watch. But when things like that happen to someone else, it gets you thinking.
I've been thinking about my mom. How really she is my best friend, my aunt agony, my biggest fan, my caregiver and for the past 20 years my ATM machine. Well, it's been occurring to me how really important she is, in not only providing for me, but also shaping the person that I am. I hope she's proud of what she sees though.
For the past 21 years I've perhaps underestimated how much she means to me or how much of an influence she is. Thats because i have a very different personality from her. I always thought we could have been closer if we had more similar personalities, but boy was i wrong. What i didn't see was how her gentleness gave way to my stubbornness, that she mellowed my headstrong personality with reasoning and meekness. It's amazing.
She's the best thing that happened to me. She always put me before herself, never complaint, always gave me the best she could afford and most importantly, is the most supportive person ever. I've never met anyone like that.
So thanks mom. thank you for being the most amazing person in my life. i love you. |
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[Mar. 8th, 2011|01:16 am] |
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some days make you wanna jump off a cliff more than others. |
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